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Hang Up Explode
02:27
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He was talking it up like he might say maybe
He's been dressing a lot like an old man lately
They say kissing that way might just drive you crazy
Yeah but letting this go might just kind of break me
Breaking me down I don't know myself
It's easier here than with someone else
Holding this hand like it's still my home
I'd rather be here than be left alone
but honestly what is wrong with me
we're hung up on this
you're hung up on me
you're hung up on him
we're hung up
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Awake And
03:15
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Drink it down like a sweetly flavored syrup
swallow gulps while not looking at their hands
moving fast like magicians misdirecting
unaware of the malice in this plan
( i am awake now, I am afraid)
making moves taking steps and clicking buttons
creeping back to the caverns of this crypt
keeping knowledge of the closest guarded secrets
open wide to the bottle and its drip
I am awake[aware] I am afraid
Take a hint from the people interacting
trying hard to not look them in the eye
saying things like a factory just churning
words that burn and that make you want to cry
faking friends moving rocks around in silence
walk through a stormy kind of night
I am awake now I am not afraid
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The Perfect Gentleman
02:37
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Is that who you really are? just a skin-suited skeleton man
nothing but the softest touch, from your cold heartless skeleton hands
is that how you treat your friends? luring hearts to your secret lair?
I remember the light of day far away from this deep despair
you looked so good in your perfect suit
and I followed you into the woods
and I took my chances
and soon i awoke inside your cave
as we walked the skin began to peel away from your face
and your hand fell to the ground
and your arms and your torso fell away
all that was left was a skull and eyeball looking at me
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That time you went to he hospital to have all that surgery
all your friends were nervous for you cause you seemed super worried
but we are your friends
and you'll be okay
and when you get home
we can hang out
we can hang out
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6. |
Movinggg
03:08
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-i'm trying hard to do this right
i know i don't know why
can we just level out this fight
the time it moves on by-
the sunlight moves across the room
the time it moves so slow
can this work or are we doomed
I don't know if i can let go
I'm trying hard to please you
but youre so apathetic
it's like im made of plastic
or just not important
i stand closely to you but i don't feel nothin
is this still important
is this just a waste of
when we were hanging at the show
I put my arms around you
you held them tight, please don't let go
a strand of cloth it caught me
undone i'm laying on the road
its safer here than with you
the asphalts cold pressed up on my nose
i think i'm moving on and
'm trying hard to please you
but youre so apathetic
it's like im made of plastic
or just not important
i stand closely to you but i don't feel nothin
is this still important
is this just a waste of time
getting olds not bad if you can count on learning things the whole time trying to forgive yourself and still let people in is not that easiest commitment to fulfill but still i go on saying sorry here and sorry there like sorry ever fixed a problem you'd think being real with people would be easy and sometimes it is but why are we still hiding feelings from those closest to us and its sad but true but you wish you could go back and undo the harm you've done to others while you were wasting all that time just thinking only of yourself. and no one ever said love was real but we just hoped it was a good idea wanted to just try it
cause making something work lasts longer than any scene in a movie and the tiny micro thoughts you have add up and you just want to feel a little close to ppl you love but the time and distance rips apart the seam of every interaction and it all dissolves and falls apart before you even had a chance to realize it was all your fault the whole time and you could’ve done something to stop
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7. |
Pushing Down on You
03:54
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like i could make this stop with just one single cure
you'll try to pull me up and but i won't move upward
cause there's just so much weight
here inside my chest
and i could unload it day after day for hours
and still have more left
but I'm trying now to be alone and good
and i think if i asked for help from someone then someone would
you say you wish time would stop
you know I wish that too
all of those small nice things there still a part of you
like that great hair day you had last week
its okay to be not okay and weak
and i know it's hard cause it's hard for me too
all those tiny hands pushing down on you
and your pushing back by just waking up
so you call your friends say your in a rut
and sometimes big boots come and stomp you out
and they blind your eyes and they shut your mouth
you say you wish time would stop
you know I wish that too
all of those small nice things that are still part of you
like that fun thing you did last night
its okay to be not okay and not right
you say you wish time would stop
you know I wish that too
all of those small nice things are still part of you
like that great hair day you had last week
its okay to be not okay and weak
you say you wish time would stop
you know I wish that too
all of those small nice things that are still part of you
like that fun thing you did last night
its okay to be not okay
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feel the water lick your toes again
try to relapse as i try to suspend
try to balance all my weight on your words
but it's just too absurd
and i should just go home
you think you can hang out in my head
while your jumping from bed to bed
well i'm not here to judge
you look as pretty as a peach
or some derivative of love
but when i click on yahoo news
and the racists they have a crew
they're coming out for you
cause their brains are filled with glue
and i don't know why they don't leave
it's like your shouting here in your room
and your thinking i can't here you
when you say those terrible thoughts
that you never should've thought
maybe we never should've met
so stay away
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so your shapes and ways have let you down again
cant seem to see it eye to spy with them
well don't keep it down
i won't keep you down
theres no reason to self ostracize
everything will retain all it's size for you
so they say that you're not right hype now to them
you wish you would've seen it long before the end
well those don't keep it down
so please don't keep it down
theres no reason to self ostracize
everything will regain all it's size for you
theres no reason to self ostracize
everything will retain all it's size for you
can i achieve the things i want to see
look in the mirror missing most of me
in-spite of things i should be proud of
i feel so lost inside of every crowd right now
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10. |
Selfs
02:39
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when i was kid i always dreamt that someday i would grow up and dig up bones i would unearth dinosaurs and ancient plants and give them a new home maybe in that way they could continue being known and understood and everything buried in the past could wake again and do some good but when you get older you realize maybe that time will always be unkind ripping at all the lovely and memories while you spin on a dime maybe the buried things should stay that way and rest for all of the new time but what kind lesson would you learn when all of your past erodes to slime
so what do you do when all the thoughts you have just suddenly explode and all of your secret selfs leak out of the corners of your nose you look back to when you were a kid for a little meaning in the shit get a little marker and use the tip to color the page until it rips
trying hard to understand the pay offs and the proposals and why and what do they matter in the clouds or sleeping under a blue sky i could count all the satellites up there i could put some new flowers in my hair i could give something new a try i could find a new way to spend my time
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